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    Forwarding Address 28 years-old human... Pancreatitis Depressed
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2003-06-02 - 11:22 a.m. Idiot Men! 25 weeks to go 180 days to go 258865 minutes to go 15531883 seconds to go Hours until Weight Watchers = 56!!! With just under six months to go until the big day it is time to join weight watchers. In fact I decided two weeks ago that 4th June would be my day to join. That�s this Wednesday. And for two weeks I have been taking advantage of the fact that I am not yet on weight watchers and absorbed in a world of counting Points and weighing out breakfast cereal by eating everything I want whenever I want. It�s a weird feeling to feel your clothes tightening and not care! I know that I feel like a roly poly at the moment, and I know that because I have made myself feel like a roly poly I will be a dedicated follower of Weight Watchers Points until I reach my target weight of 9.5 stone in about four or five months time. So the whole clothes-tightening thing is strangely pleasurable. Besides, after two weeks I am fed up with lardy food and I am looking forward to some salads! I had a lovely weekend. I took Friday off and my two best friends (and bridesmaids!) headed off to the seaside for the weekend for a girly retreat. It was really relaxing and fun. Marred only by the fact that Bee spent most of Friday night upset over her idiot phuq-head of a boyfriend. A bit of background? Ok then� Bee is 26, her boyfriend (let�s call him Idiot) is 36. He looks like somebody�s Dad and his day job is to drive a white van. Though she, blindly, thinks he�s just perfect and gorgeous. They have been together six months, he took her to �Curry Special� for her birthday (seriously) and they have been out together during the day only ONCE. He refuses to go out with her friends saying that when he goes out he wants to go out with his friends only � incidentally his friends are creepy and decidedly odd. Fairy went out with one of them once a long time ago for one date � she found out afterwards that he had told everyone he had slept with her when he hadn�t and had lied about his age. Anyway. Bee is obviously miserable and Idiot treats her like shit and she wanted to try and finish it but couldn�t summon up the guts. She spent most of the weekend complaining about him and justifying all the reasons she had to break up with him. Then on Sunday she went round to see him to finish it for good and didn�t come home. I got a text message from her this morning saying that she�s staying with him. It makes me so angry that Idiot has told her he doesn�t love her, he feels she likes him more than he likes her and he won�t socialise with her friends, yet he thinks he has the right to stay with her. Where do people like that come from?! Which swamp rocks were lifted to let them crawl out into the world?! Urgh. Makes me so mad! Wedding wise it is now only three weeks until our wedding rings are ready for collection! So very exciting! But so very far away� The Future Hubby moved the flat I share with Fairy this weekend. We are staying there until the end of June when we move to Kent to live with my mother rent-free for two months to save some much needed cash. So my life is packed up in boxes at the moment � it plays havoc with the mind and I constantly feel in a fug. I can�t wait to get some order back to my life. I can�t wait to have books back out on bookshelves, clothes hung up in wardrobes, pictures hanging on walls and CDs back in racks. It�s amazing how demoralising it is to come home to find your bed surrounded in cardboard boxes every night. But I know I will look back on this time fondly in twenty years, and for that I try to pay attention to all the little details as they happen. I try to focus on the things going on so I can remember in years to come. |
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